forever yours

     At lunch today, you finally ignored me. Finally. Have you no clue how horrible you are? Every word from your mouth is about you - never me. Never anyone but you. I don't breathe when you're around. I don't want to, see. I don't sing out anymore when you're near, because everything's about you. You've torn me down completely. The first words out of your mouth to me were criticism, and every word since has been naught but praise for yourself. Do you even know how to feel the way that I do? Terrified of the one who thinks herself your best friend? Terrified of any time you open your mouth? Terrified to speak for yourself?

     You know I can't say no to anyone. It's just impossible for me, and you're using it to your advantage, you're using it to make me forever yours. If I can't say no...what else will you make me do? If I can't even say no to you, what will happen to me? 

     I'll be the seventeen year old...

...Who doesn't say no to a drink.

     I'll be the nineteen year old...

...Who has to visit the abortion clinic.

     I'll be the twenty-two year old...

...Who is forced into an abusive marriage.

    I need to say no to you just once so that I can say no to what I need to, so stop making it so hard! I can't stay sane while you're here blocking my path. I can't stay alive while you're forcing yourself into my mind, slipping me roofies without needing the drugs. Help me - let me go. I can't stay forever yours, but at this rate I'm going to.

 

 

 

 

 

Let me go so I don't have to let myself go.

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[rachel <3]

oh girly what will we do with you?