Loneliness Grabs A Hold

Loneliness grabs a hold of me, 

it refuses to let go.

Love is nowhere to be found,

I’ve never felt so low.

I feel so unwanted,

so discarded.

I’ve been told that I’m retarded,

it makes me wonder if that’s the

reason I’m so unregarded…

Though, I’m not for certain that

mentally disabled is the correct 

label.

My brain is not wired the way it

ought to be,

this is something that anyone can

see quite clearly.

Am I a freak or perhaps just unique?

Do my differences make me strong

or do they only make me weak?

Will anyone ever look and see 

deep into my soul or will they 

always just skim the surface

and pass me by, 

leaving me feeling dejected and 

quite cold?

I feel so empty and just want to be

made whole, 

being alone all this time has definitely 

taken its toll.