Permission.

Oh, but I need you now

I can't sleep without hearing 
You breathe.
Your heart beats
so far away.

You're someone 
I can never understand.

This is not close enough.
How could this happiness exist?
I should have known better
But this... This was everything.

Mind if I tried to close your eyes?
Mind if I tried to kill you?
Mind if I crushed everything
That was ever us?

We can't go back.
So let me
Let me press this
Against the skin of your heart
And pull the trigger.