thawing

I named this thawing because within this two month span without him, I actually feel myself again, not this cold heart-ed monster he created

I was told that the best place to cry was, 

the floor of my bath tub,

and to make the water so hot,

that the numb I was feeling would thaw

I remember feeling so vulnerable,

like I was twelve again, 

I've never felt so hurt so 

rejected...

The same place where I broke down 

the week before, 

I realized that it wasn't humane

to hate myself,

because this woman wasn't me anymore

it was someone he created

The same bath tub floor 

I promised my twelve year old self, 

that from this point on, 

I'd only love someone

who loved that same twelve year old girl

crying on the bath tub floor.

Author's Note

for my oh so worried reviewers, I'm better, alot better. thank you so much for being here these past few months.

Reviews

[Emily]

I love it!!
I like it at the beginning when it talks about crying on the bathroom floor.
Keep it up!!

[Jamestown]

This is very sad, but unfortunately these things happen! I pray that
you come out stronger and find that special someone to care
for you the way you need to be cared for. Nice piece and thanks
for sharing! PTL!!!