Putting holes in happiness

Haven't wrote anything in a few weeks. Hope you like this..

My life is full of medics,

Paramedics can't help me,

So i have to make do with all the cards that are dealt me,

You will never understand but i will still explain,

the burning insane thoughts that are running through my brain,

I tamed them....

BUT then they grew wilder,

Take over my mind pushed me out now i'm an outsider,

What if i got the petrol and a lighter,

A match or 2 sticks or any kind of ignitor,

And set a light to,

The photographs that remind ya,

Off my broken down past and how i could of been nicer! 

Barely raised up by two parents who couldn't try,

That's why i stand before you as a dysfunctional guy,

dysfunctional life and everything that's a surrounds it,

The time i never hated it but everyone in town did,

Then founded,

The answer i was looking for my farther mistreated me my mother was a f*****g w***e,

To busy living on their life's,

Rather than a parents life,

I love them back together as a couple as a parents slice,

Then they just blew it i'm full of anger from it,

Every time i think of them it makes me just want to VOMIT!

When i see your photograph,

The memories i have are from when i was ill sick or upset you would just laugh,

Real parents do parenting but you would just sit back,

But forget that now your forgotten in the past,

If you ever wanted me back I'd never have that,

Your beginning to go lonely as the sky goes BLACK,

This is a fact,

I'm finally fear,

And if you want me so much better, F**k when i needed ya!

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