jokes

i think if we dont get love we start making jokes

but you can't tell too many jokes either

so now i lie on my bed whenever i'm not needed

but it's never for something worth doing

maybe don't catastrophize,

maybe don't moralize it

i'm just too shy

in some ways i'm too nice

i don't understand

i don't understand

i'm sick of telling jokes

tell me something else

please

remember it exists and that's not up for questioning

love, that is

remember that you can cry as hard from love as you can from hate

you've just never had the opportunity

i am not the enemy

i cannot be, i did this by accident

but i can TRY to not side with the plague, with the death, 

the only ideology that doesn't make sense

i don't think i'm wrong day to day, though

maybe i'm not made for influence or conflict

but i'm creative and i'm kind

and i'll hug you goodnight

and i'll throw you a party if you let me

it might be all about the striving.