ENERGY DRINKS AT 2AM

Tonight I relapsed again
I didn’t even last two months

I called a hotline after
But I didn’t feel any less alone
By the time I hung up

I left and bought cigarettes
Then drove around for a while

I saw a cop
And I considered speeding
Just to get pulled over
And have somebody to talk to

My roommate is supposed to hide my meds from me
But I don’t think he takes me very seriously
He left them all out on the kitchen table

I feel so wrong
Just off
I want my meds
To start working again
I don’t want to wait
Any longer

I don’t want to sleep alone
I don’t want to write alone
I don’t want to cry alone
I don’t want to be alone

Alone
A l o n e
Alone

No matter how many people
I fill my days with
At the end of the night
I am always
Alone

Author's Note

I know it’s not my best, but I just needed to put something out there tonight. Thanks for reading ✨

Reviews

[Onlyme]

This is really open and honest and raw, heartfelt and speaks from the soul. I really feel your pain and loneliness and having no one to talk with. It's sad that you live with a roommate and you could not even go and talk with him. Unless he was at work or Studying elsewhere? You did the right thing by expressing yourself on here. and if ever need to share or get it out. Write your feelings down on here. Or drops us a line in general. Someone cares. Honest, they do. Hope you're okay. And feel better?

[Lost]

Thank you. I appreciate the support and kind words :)

[Onlyme]

your very welcome. Never feel alone. As someone cares. Ie I do. for starters. Dawn.

[Julie McCarthy (juliesp..]

yes i agree with the review below
always express yourself on here
we do not judge just empathetic souls who want to help but feel helpless
across the miles we all read each others feelings and moods
that is why i love this site
i have been on depressions spiral many times
mostly down
i come across as happy but in real life probably not
good luck with your day and your writing x