Here I am

right now ive been realizing how confusing my life is and how hard it is to be a body inhabited by sickness. i wrote this for my friends that go through invisible sickness as i do.

God i sit at your feet

i cry for healing for my friends 

i watch those like me suffer in pain and chains

i beg for their life to be showered in joy and laughter

repaint the canvous of white walls and the shade of blue scrubs that flash by our eyes

give us the strength to stand up and try

she like me is only a girl 

she loves you and your world

she wants secretly to be free of this life of misery

show her what you have shown me

the scent of freshly scantiness hospital rooms

the feeling of intro-venouse needles that toughen our once silken skin

take away the tears cried from the  bitterness of night

heal our sinful desires

take away our mires

give us back something of worth to live for

bring back the life of those who have lost their youth

give back hope to families with nothing left to grasp on to

show them the mercy in which you have taught me

this road we walk is rocky and painful 

this cup we must drink is bitter 

full of sorrow, trust, and humility,

who are we to be free?

in you alone i find my chains unbound

my heart is yours alone!