dear heart

i want to dedicate this to the person who broke my hear and believe other's lies

roses are falling , winter is done

fall is calling for my love that's undone 

you say you love me oh how bad i cant see

walked away like leaves leaving a tree

cold as ice you broke me inside 

words unspoken ,actions and motion 

am i not that good for you to stay 

or my problems is my own to blame

am i wrong isnt  love suppose to be for two

how come i was there for you and your not here for me too

dear heart i beg you to stay 

away from all the hurt and games

dear god for you i pray 

to lead me away from this person 

i don't want to go back in time

where blood used to run along my wrist line 

am sorry mom i found my razor again 

am disturbed and seriously blue in my head

daddy left you put it all on my shoulder

now am mentally ill and it gets worse now am older

why am i finding joy in the bottom of this bottle 

and the relief of my stress with this fire 

dear heart neither to a lover , family or even a friend  

Author's Note

this is the first time i write something online and i kind of wrote this right in this moment because this is exactly whats happening right now with me