BRAND NEW ME

wrote this a while ago during my seperation. it was part of my healing process.. : )

Have you noticed the changes in me?

Smaller waist, slim face;

Looks good with my smile;

I haven’t looked this good in a long while.

And all it took,

Was for my world to get shook.

Lost my love, but gained myself.

Pain that I have never felt, but better days to come;

Cuz when you look at me, you will know you lost a great one.

I won’t stop here, I have more to do.

And I will show you, I will make myself even better.

You remember what I was like before?

Cute, sweet, never insecure;

I found comfort in your love back then,

You made me feel more beautiful then I ever imagined.

Now it seems, I'm not lustful enough for you.

But in reality you couldn’t keep up with me,

Sex was a chore for you, something you felt you had to do.

I was satisfied with what you gave,

But I yearned for more.

You never gave your all.

Instead, you were on call.

Pleasing another.

You gave her what I thought was mine

Left me behind;

I sit back a think of how you hurt me

And it gets easier with time.

To welcome another guy,

Willing to receive all I have left to give;

I lost myself in you, but I still have a life to live.

You’ve moved on.

Loving another but she won’t last long.

If you think you’ll be satisfied, you’re wrong.

Can she do what I do, hold you like I use to.

Pleasure you until you moan and smile the way I use to make you?

I don’t think so, but still you need to venture off.

Our love is stranded, lost.

While your out playing foolish games,

I’ll be here lighting my flame.

With my seductive smile and slim waist,

I will show you I always had what it takes.

I’ll have no problem finding a replacement.

A reality you will be faced with.

Moving forward won’t be hard for me.

You think you took everything away,

But I still have my inner beauty.

I always knew how to get attention,

And did I forget to mention, I’m a natural flirt.

I don’t have to work too hard,

Just use my girlish charm and watch as they swarm

The men will follow, I don’t have a doubt.

Soon I’ll have a list of men giving me shout outs!

But I’m not looking for love,

Don’t believe in it anymore.

Because of you, I’ve closed that door.

You’re not missing me;

Or what we called home.

So why should I suffer alone?

Your new woman makes you feel good today,

But remember, I made you better in so many ways.

I wasted too much time on you.

And even though it hurt,

I’m grateful we are through.

So take a good look at me.

Classy, independent and free;

You knocked me down, but I’m rising up slowly.

You will realize one day that leaving me was a mistake.

But it was the chance you were willing to take.

I have no more time to waste.

With my sexy new look, charm and spice.

I know when it comes down to it,

You will hate to admit it,

But this classymami will be alright ; )

 

 

Reviews

[Xeru]

This was beautiful in alot of ways. When you invest a large part of your soul in something and the returns are minimal to nil. It f***s with you foreal. But the best part of growth away from that pain is the resurgence of self. Getting your feet back under you. Sometimes it takes a long time. Sometimes it doesnt. Either way the process is key to being strong again. And strong you are. Great piece Ivy... You are very inspiring.

[Charles D. Moorer]

you have come trhough the storm with self-respect and self-esteem. Well done! Classymiami!

[Constance]

I love the written version, and I want so badly to hear the spoken, but it's not working. I'm trying to choose finalists in the contest, but I have to be able to hear to choose. Please let me know if/when you can get it working again, ASAP.
C

[☮]

Tell 'em girl!!! Hot as usual. What a swagger. I'm happy you've healed. Writing is the antedote.