Some NightsA Poem by cmballa spoken word piece I have been working onShoes come
off. Gauges get
thrown on the coffee table. Your foot
reaches for the rest. A beer just
begging to be drank in your hand. Your voice
creeks. Listen to
it. Give me
your hand. Come here. Sing with
me. Why does
your voice sound like that? Why does it
sound like everything I’ve been looking for? Song ends. How can you
look at me with those eyes and not kiss me? How can you
turn away? Why do you
push me away? “Leave.”
The word trembles on my lips. The door
slams. The Car
starts. The Music
roars. The Tears
poor. How could I
ever explain that as much as I said go away I meant stay forever How could I
expect any emotion if all I could give you was a wall 6 months
later sitting in an empty dorm an hour away That song
comes on and I break. I reach for
my phone But instead
of dialing you I open facebook and scroll I see you. Happy and
in love with someone who didn’t make you fight Someone who
says “my boyfriend” not “you’re a great friend” Someone who
says love me, kiss me, hold me. That’s all
you wanted. That’s all
I wouldn’t give. Because
that’s called feelings and they scared me But now as
I sit in this empty dorm what is this This is
feelings and they scare me But what
scares me the most is I didn’t take the risk Afraid to
take the leap because you could have hurt me But what is
this. But self-created Loneliness. © 2013 cmball
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Added on November 19, 2013 Last Updated on November 19, 2013 Tags: love, young adult, fun, songs, mistakes, letting go |