Full of FlapdoodleA Story by Colonel StingoA woman who can't stop talking holds men in thrallFULL OF FLAPDOODLE
She knew almost nothing about anything real, but she
could talk, so her discourse contained many more words than concepts. Men paid
attention to her because they hoped they could get on her good side by
pretending to be interested in her conversation. They were wrong. The only
reward anyone ever got from listening to her seemingly never-ending stream of
consciousness was more of the same. I imagine she calmed down when she slept,
but none of the men who had endured so patiently her torrential word geysers
ever found out. At least I never met one who did, and I met many.
She was possibly the sexiest woman I have ever met,
but not the prettiest. As looks go, she was only average, but there was
something about her, maybe a scent, or a way she had of looking at you that
made her irresistible. You knew you would be lucky to have her, even though that
luck would run out soon after it arrived, if you were ever so lucky in the
first place.
In finding disciples, she did not employ facial tics
or affectations. I never saw her wink. No coy smiles crossed her lips, no
dimples formed between cheek and mouth. She simply looked right at a man, and
then through him, and the effect was unnerving.
She talked about everything, because with an
audience so rapt she had the time to cover a wide range of subjects. Her
favorite themes involved soul migration, aliens living among us, and magnetic
resonance as a source of teleportation and time travel. Since most people have
no real opinions about these matters, hers were never contested. People, mostly
men, simply listened.
Her speech was faux
didactic, slightly condescending, full of implied common understandings that
were as fanciful as they were far-fetched. No one ever said more about less,
yet her audiences never dared point that out for fear of losing her affection.
In that way she inspired loyalty.
If one of these men had bothered to really listen to
what she was saying, he would have found that she often repeated herself. The
same themes were illustrated with the same examples. The story of the little boy who was out chasing fireflies
one night when he saw a flying saucer making crop circles and then fell into an
abandoned well so he sang the hymns he’d learned in Sunday school to keep his
spirits up until he was rescued was an old chestnut she took out and
polished at least once a week.
I know, because I paid attention to all her stories,
and caught all the allusions and inferences, remembered the details and the odd
mix of Bible tales mixed with stories of Venusian visitors who brought Adam and
Eve to our planet a hundred thousand years ago. From her I learned that
raccoons are smarter than horses, that dogs were once human but de-evolved as
punishment for cruelty, and LBJ had JFK killed over an insult that no one else
remembered, but that the Texan never forgot.
Too bad she and I never became intimate. In fact,
the more I knew about her, the less interested she seemed in me. Eventually,
she would ignore me entirely, saving her piercing gaze for newcomers. They came
and went, but I remained, ever attentive and hopeful.
I have found that the more intermittent and
unexpected the reward, the more addictive the activity. At the beginning, she
would smile at me every time I was in her presence. After a while, that
dwindled to weekly, then monthly, and then it ratcheted up to a whole new level
when the smiles came rarely and as a complete surprise. Talk about being hooked!
My self-esteem reached new lows, and yet I
persevered, convincing myself that it was only a matter of time before she recognized
and rewarded her most loyal fan. Then my self-esteem would skyrocket! Finally,
I would have what I’ve always craved, the perfect setting in which to develop
peace of mind and true contentment.
Only it didn’t happen that way. It just got worse.
Finally, I realized that I was like someone who had fallen into a cult
religion. To admit that it was all baloney was more than I could bear. Despite
my nagging doubts, I had continued onward because it seemed easier to endure
chronic pain than be overwhelmed by a wall of grief for all the lost hours and
dashed hopes.
There was nothing wrong with her but there was
plenty wrong with me. Once I admitted that, things quickly got better. I
stopped listening to her flapdoodle and began noticing what was really going on
around me. Much to my surprise, it proved more interesting that the same tired
stories about aliens and time travel.
It turned out that I am, and probably always was,
surrounded by perfectly delightful, sane people who don’t make a big impact at
first impression. Two of them showed up my first week of abstinence from
you-know-who.
Dennis was a musician, a writer, but more
importantly a guy who wasn’t afraid to work. He didn’t think his artistic
talents qualified him for a free ride in life. He enjoyed being of service and
doing a good job. If he had any esoteric beliefs, he kept them to himself. The
first evening we got together at his place, we watched television with the
sound off, listened to music from his laptop, and talked for about three hours
about a great number of things.
The second person who magically emerged on my scene
was Anita. Because she was about twenty years my junior, I felt more like her
older brother than a possible suitor, which was just fine with her, because she
seemed in no hurry to entangle herself in romance or its closest cousin, sex. We
went to a movie, which was surprisingly good, and then over ice cream talked
about it afterward. She paid her own way. I liked that.
I don’t mean to make it seem like I was completely
cured of my fixation on Ms. Flapdoodle, but the pangs came less frequently as
time passed, and after a month I only thought about her twenty times a day,
which was a big improvement over every ten seconds.
Having two real friends in place of one sick
obsession did wonders for my life in other ways. My ability to concentrate
improved, and I found I was able to stay absorbed in a productive activity long
enough to get real results. I had grown used to having my train of thought
interrupted by thoughts of her, by her stories.
It took a while to move her out and me in.
Everything was going well until one day she arrived
at my door. I don’t know how she found out where I lived, but she did. She said
she had missed me, that it pained her to lose one of her best friends, and that
she had grown fond of me. Being as surprised
as I was delighted, I offered absolutely no resistance, and within minutes all
thoughts of my new life had vanished. Although we didn’t actually become lovers
at that moment, it certainly seemed like the event lay just around the corner,
and all my senses were keenly aroused. I was like a drug addict who had just
been injected with his favorite drug after a long period of abstinence.
That was the last time I ever saw her. After that
day, she simply disappeared. I wonder what she was after with that visit, and
it seems in retrospect she simply wanted to exert her will, to show her power,
to flex her muscles and reassure herself that she still had what it takes to
make men like me jump. When she said “jump” by only response was “how high?”
I can only assume that she found herself another disciple
who was more pleasing to her. It surely can’t be that she found one more
compliant, for it’s impossible to imagine anyone more willing to do her bidding
that I was.
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Added on January 12, 2014Last Updated on January 13, 2014 AuthorColonel StingoSalta, south america, ArgentinaAboutI'm best known as a humorist, but I'm most interested in being profound, in the sense of alerting the reader to hidden beauty that comes hand in hand with what often seems absurd. Maybe that's what st.. more..Writing
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