Fiery Trance

I feel like I'm on fire...

A burning all consuming..

Raging inferno that yields for nothing.

How the flames have not yet leapt...

To my outer being..

I do not understand.

I just know I feel it..

As it consumes my hopes and dreams..

Desires and wishes are nothing but ashes.

I just want to hear...

The cool wisp of his memories..

The words that once tamed the blaze.

But they have been lost to the winds of time...

Forgotten, neglected, and betrayed from existence...

Sometimes he reappears letting the fire simmer.

But just as quickly vanishes into a watery frenzy...

Taking that precious life flow with him as he leads..

Leaving me to once again be a victim to these flames.

I just want to feel the life...

He once brought to me...

Why won't these flames smolder down and die?

What have I done to deserve a thieves fate...?

What did I steal...

Did I take, sample, desire something that was never meant to be?

Perhaps that's the reason I burn...

He comes in just long enough to produce fresh life...

And once he leaves those fiery things once again make their consuming leap.

A fiery tempo...

That has yet to lose its deranged pulse...

Why, oh why, did you leave me here to die?

Would it not have been kinder..

To put a bullet through my heart...

But instead you leave me here to burn at the stake I once called love.

Should I hate you or thank you...

In a way you made me invunlrable to blazing attacks..

But cold to the life others offered.

Why, oh why, did you leave..

Why, oh why, did you not take these desired fueled flames with you..

These burn marks, oh how I wish you could see.

Just how scarred and alone you left me..

Is my heart still there...

Or like the rest of my fibers.

It's only remembered by papery ashes..

That threaten to blow away..

At any given moment.

But somehow the flames..

Keep me locked in this blazing dance..

And I'm trapped in this trance.

Staring at the glowing wall surrounding me..

Visions of your face haunting my memories...

Please come back with your life giving flow.

And this time promise to me...

You'll actually forever...

Stay with me.