Battling Addiction

personal experience

I felt like I was an outsider

Trying to look in through a dust covered window

Into a family that wasn't meant for me

So I turned away and fell pray

To a demon disguised as an angel

I remember how it burned

When that smokey air filled my lungs

My eyes watered and I tried to keep from coughing

In those quiet still silences

While the demons minions slid into my body

Traveling up the red wires

To where everything was processed and combined

And with their glowing sharpened claws

Began tearing away everything I had fought so hard to keep

Instead of stopping them

I aided them by sending more troopers in

Together they demolished everything within

Memories became shattered and foggy

Loved ones began disappearing

I remember my body relaxing

As I was put into a false state of ease

One that would forever bind itself to me

A poison I depended on

A poison that was slowly taking control

As my fingers slide along the curves of the container

It's retched smell appealing to the desires that I tried so hard to smother

And off we went again

This demon and I

As his minions once again stormed in

And I did nothing but aid them

It became the foundation of my existence

A craving

A monster that wouldn't rest

Until it had been satisfied

I tried to fight it

I got so close to clawing my way out

But then another demon appeared

Offered his hand to me

And I accepted it gratefully

But instead of pulling me out

He put that sinister thing back into my hand

And down I went

Plummeting once again.  

Author's Note

yuup..