Why are you here tears?
I’m trying so hard to
understand….
Why I feel this way right now..
Why it feels like I’m
standing on a glass tower..
Watching the glass shatter around me…
And suddenly I realize I’m
falling…
The wind sucking the life from my lungs…
It’s almost serene till I
remember what’s happening
I’m falling.
Enduring one of my biggest
fears
To be what trapped in this state for what feels like
An eternity
Only to be broken by the sudden connection of reality
I’ve fallen like this
before
And I know this fear all too well
I can feel the fear
spreading through my body
As despair wells deep inside
I look around wildly
trying to find anything
That could provide a saving grace
But all I see are the
glass shards around me
Reflecting memories
I watch in a silent stupor
As each one falls around me
I look up one last time
Absorbing the smile of the sun
It sounds like such a
sweet melody
That’s beginning to dance around me
When suddenly it hits
Breaking everything I am
The melody is gone
And, ah there it is again
That familiar sound
Of silence.
Pain is racing through my
body
No sounds no chance of peace
Just this miserable
crushing silence
As the darkness creeps over my broken body
Falling from my dreamscape
to here
Back to reality, to darkness, and despair
Why can’t I stay there?
Why am I forced to go each time I feel
I’ve finally become safe
Maybe that’s why
I’ve never really felt
safe at all
Because once I do
Something happens
And down I go
Falling all over again
And again, and again, and again
A lesson I’ll never seem
to learn
I continue to climb up each time with less
And less hope that this
time
Maybe I won’t fall
I wonder which fall
Will finally be the one that actually kills me
And I won’t have anything
left
That’ll help me mend myself
Pick myself up
And try climbing again.
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