to do list 2:37 AM

there's nothing to write

because im not fighting any

notable demons

tonight.

im wiping tears

from my thumbs and

elbows,

but its just all

part of the process.

im just as happy

as i was in highschool.

i remember driving my car

down scott blvd

and feeling exuberant

to be alive.

i dont think ive

felt that since. 

i dont know

what love even means

to me.

i dont have it,

though.

ill just jot down

some thoughts to look

over tomorrow.

im rotting

at the seams.