Personal Experience

And I wished

That I experienced everything

With you 

The chaos, the pain 

Your birth into someone I never knew 

And your rebirth into the liar 

I loved 

I wished I experienced you 

In your loveliness

Such blessed grace, dotting

Along the constellation

On your face

Your fiery emotions

Dripping tears and love 

Unto the bed we shared

A vacuum of space, left childless

Because thats how you left me

A child, alone and shivering

An emptiness path away 

I wished I experienced 

"After" us 

Where you slept the night after

In a single bed with sheets unfamiliar 

What you felt the next afternoon

When our music wasn't playing

And the sun filtered in

In the curtain-less windows of your childhood room

I wished I experienced you

And known you

More than I know myself 

The me that was before 

You