As if you've never thought about it before

The wish to die without intent

But only through accident

To leave this world behind

Without the physical commitment

To pass through a slip and fall 
Or a violent hit and run

To lay there bleeding, smiling

Having achieved what so many wished for 

Rather than be found, 

Those deliberate wrists laid bleeding

Drops of intent tearing up the tiled floor 

For those who once loved me to discover

I wish for same ending, to walk along

The planes of the abyss of the life after

But I wish for death to become fate 

Rather than purposeful destiny

So that I may find a cowardly way out 
Of this life found so lonesome 

To leave with a last shock into my still heart

The surprise leaving me utterly breathless