Dear Journal
Dear God
Dear friend
Dear someone willing to listen;
What have I done?
I've given everything
is this really my life?
These two suitcases,
full of clothes
a sleeping bag
and some drugs?
I know I have other choices
but I feel so horrible
without them.
I don't want to die
I don't want to live.
I'm scarred
I lose either way.
These feelings
they keep coming
and what do I have- nothing
What do I need?
Everything.