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This is just part of it I wanted peoples opinion so far.

"I dont cry anymore." I blink at the graying man in front of me. "I decided it had no use to me. All it really does is make me gross and splotchy." 

"So what your telling me is that you find no purpose for that release of pain?" Dr. Watson always does this. He acts as if everything i say is wrong and that my band against pain and emotion hinders me in my healing process. 

"Yes! That is exactly what im saying. I dont want to feel the pain. F**k! I dont want to come see you everyday either! I see no purpose in seeing you when i could be learning something important in class!" I scream as i stand grabbing my bag and stomping off to my 5th period class.

Sad part I'll be forced to return to his sweaty office that smells like bengay and prune juice. By national standards i would be considered insane or unstable, but hey everyone has something right. The truth of the matter is that I am just trying to get through my senior year so i can get the hell out of dodge, literally. Why the hell should these ......people care about whats wrong with me?