Just a Little Broken

a reflection

I'm Just a little broken
It seems that they would say
For thers times it seems
I can't make it through the day
Some say its perception
It just gets to me
Yet still when I wake up
They aren't here to see
I wonder what my day will be
They aren't here to see
I wonder what my day will be
I'm told, "just think it good"
I don't see them in my head though
Don't they really think I would
Sometimes I'm just not walking
Other days my mind is gone
It's already done, with my day though
Just the pain is lingering on
Make it sound so simple
"Here is what to do"
And when I find myself in question
It's here I don't see you
Some people call me crazy
Because of how I feel
Sometimes just wanting it go away
For the pain is all too real
And when I start to feel you
At times I have to run and hide
That's just not for me to feel
What it is you'feel inside
I've tried just disconnecting
Yet then I'd not grow
They say it's for a reason
Now I don't wanna know
For when I'm stuck inside me
And I only feel you in here
I begin to wonder where I lost me to
I know this may sound queer
What else would I find now
To just not feel today
Theres the wall I've been hitting on
Without a word I say
I keep walking through
My heart I try to leave
Kind a tough from where I stand
with it hanging on my sleeve
And how do I get out now
As I'm looking for my way in
Left in the shadow of a doubt now
Tomorrow I'll try again
Don C
2/18/09