Done?

So much time passed and the pain is no less than it was when it was fresh...

I'm sure I've reached that place,
That place where I am done.
No more blame, no more lies,
No more games, yes, I'm done.
No more he said, she said,
She did, he didn't
I'm left dizzy from the pointing fingers,
Cold. Alone. Despondent.
I surely cannot fathom
Continuing this chase.
To unravel the why
The lies
I simply cannot finish this race.

I don't want to be right,
I don't care if I'm wrong.
All I know is can no longer
Stand to be numb.
No, Mr. Gabriel, I grieve no more,
Though you are right,
Life goes on through the scars.

I'm too tired to try,
To figure out why,
I had to compete for your love,
Always vie for your time.
I have cried so much,
And for such a long time
I honestly don't think there's
Anything left for me to cry.
I want to go to bed at night
And finally be able to sleep.
No waking, crying at 2 a.m.,
I want to bathe in my slumber, so deep.
I cannot seem to get away,
I see your face, every single day.
My god, will this ache ever go away!
Its not welcome here,
It may not stay.

You've completely, irrevocably,
Totally ruined me.
I just can't fight you anymore,
And I guess that's how it will have to be.
You're everywhere I've ever been,
And everywhere I'll ever be.
You're in the shadows, and the light
You own my days, you own my nights.
There is no fighting, I give in.
Youve broken me so.
Are you happy? You win...

Author's Note

Have at it, I don't care...