I See Now

Humanity and not being human...What's the point?

I see all that has to be seen,
And felt all that has to be felt
And loved what had to be loved.
But why do I still feel empty?
Why does this still haunt me?
Why are there always these endless questions
That never seem to have answers?

I tried to be human
But being human means losing yourself in the process.
That, I've successfully done.
I wished for all the feelings, emotions and
The pains and joys that human go through in their lives.
But what for?
What's the outcome?
Pain, suffering, degradation, humiliation and a dark emptiness.

Oh! If I had but listened to you!
You, who told me to listen to you, and only you,
I would have followed the right path,
And we could've been always happy together
Knowing no pain and no sadness.
But now that has been lost,
And I've lost you in the process.
And for what?
For the price of being human.

I see all my mistakes now,
And if I've learned one thing from all these experiences
Of being human,
It's this-
Regret not what has happened, instead delve into the future,
For we pave our own paths and live for ourselves,
Not others.

I now see my mistake,
And after a lot of pondering
I know that I can never return to you,
Even if I could,
For as angels I was bound to you,
But as a human,
Even with all my shortfalls,
I was bound to no one.
I was free.

Author's Note

Ah! The everlasting request: What do you think? Please be nice! This poem has haunted my dreams for days- and now its finally out!