stuck

finds herself stuck

because the money she was

supposed to get from the

Feds,

didn’t turn out the way that she

had

planned

(she’d forgotten about that loan

she took out years ago

to do nursing online, only to

find out later that she didn’t &

wouldn’t have the time,

when pregnancy brought her

third little girl into the

world).

 

finds herself stuck

because the man she’s with has been

dwindling &

in the different ways that a relationship

can fail,

the tension brews as the time spent in

bed grows more & more

sparse,

as the two of them, exhausted from working

opposite shifts, in order to take care of the kids

at hand,

have no energy left to entertain the possibility of

intimacy.

 

finds herself stuck

because the time it would take to start again

is burning now quicker than it ever had before &

the person she sees looking back at her in the mirror,

just isn’t as confident as she used to be in

getting rid of the old,

in order to go searching for someone new.

 

finds herself stuck

because in the immediacy of the overwhelming moment,

it is so very hard to breathe,

and as the anxiety comes creeping up quick,

she wants to flee to somewhere

so she can cry alone.