stuck

Where I've been lately

I'm stuck here again 

Memories I can't control 

The meds don't help

I'm tired of therapy 

What was expected of us 

They never told us 

How to live with it 

When your inner child

is horrified 

By what you did 

What do you tell him 

When It's not okay

It's what it feels like 

A terrified child 

who will never be

okay

Reviews

[Pryde Foltz]

When your inner child
is horrified
By what you did
What do you tell him
When It's not okay
It's what it feels like
A terrified child
who will never be
okay

War is as old as human existence that doesn't make it any less painful. Literally million of men and some women have been where you are. If you can forgive all those who came before you, you must forgive yourself. You didn't know any better. Hold that inner child dear and soothe him. You carrying around the guilt only adds to the pain of war. Feel better, friend.

[icelandicblue]

I don't pretend to totally understand what you feel. How could I? But I do feel for you and how much we are in your debt for your sacrifice. Your suffering touches us all. As they say War is Hell and who knows better than those who have been there.

[Tate Morgan]

It is all about growing up and becoming well seasoned. The day will come when your nightmares are like old friends and instead of fearing them you will take comfort in them .I think it takes to about 35 to become accustomed to the things that bring us pause you are fine

[Megan]

I particularly like the reference to your (and our own) inner child. I think it is profound.

[MAD ENGLISHMAN]

A soldier is firstly a conditioned war machine and secondly a human being. It cannot be otherwise or we could not do the things necessary to win. You may never forgive yourself but you should be able to accept that the sacrifice of a few for the good of many is the lesser of two evils.
Don't over think it.
The good lord will judge who was right and who was wrong. Live the rest of your life trying to be as good as possible.
Very best regards my friend.

[Persephone]

Quite profound. If only innocence could last a lifetime. Great piece.

[Sami Khalil]

Wow. One of your best. So touching and true. This makes us tear up for the human condition. Excellent...:)..............

[Sourav]

True... When your inner child
is horrified... then it's very difficult to handle life...

But we must come out of painful memories... although it's difficult at times but it can be done... pat is gone my friend, future is all yours.

[Marie Anzalone]

Not a review... more an acknowledgment of the importance of your words and the depth of vulnerability.

[Troy Henson]

mmmm I know I can never relate but I to have an inner child that is horrified for different reasons. One thing I have learnt is that forgiving but not forgetting is a method of walking tall. What you experienced is unique to only a minority and the impact huge. Self control is never easy. Your words speak volumes in all that you write my friend so let it out often and spill these emotions and use your pen to sooth the inner child. You are only human and for that you are forgiven.

Regards

Troy

[Ama May Cooper]

Wow, another piece of work with a shocking stab , a meaning full and strong message despite the short and snappyness of the lines... your agony is painted, like a childs a poor innocent defenceless little lamb. I hope it all fades, even though i relaise how grave an injury it is, i hope somewhere there is peace left