September 13 feels like October

i don't have the answers

not a single clu

If i did something wrong i'm sorry

i can be so silly 

so impertinent

so rebellious

so stuck and resistant

so sorry

so very very sorry

i dont kno why my heart hates me so

doesnt matter

i dont kno why my mind is suddenly my biggest enemy

doesnt matter

its like once i chose him

they reared their ugly heads

realized thats fine

they were never for me

anyway