agape

This type of thing takes a certain type of trust

An allegiance to faith

This thing is beyond words and understanding 

This type of thing does not make sense

For this type of thing is new

A confusion

A loving frustration

A longing

An unfair nakedness

But to be loved in that nakedness still

I'ts unfathomable

It hurts so good

It's a different type of suffering

A pleasant suffering

A worthwhile suffering

I felt a miserable pain in my heart

What was that?

Oasis isn't far along

How do I pay for this?

It was already paid

I'm being told

Just lead me i'm so tired

Please just take whatever is I have left

I'll risk it all

Surrender it all

the crippling sorrow

the leaky heart

the broken psyche

all of it

Let it be known that she submits it all

If you need to rip it out of my dirty hands

Just do it says the ego

I know you're gentle 

But just rip me apart

RIP me away

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