Him

A personal poem I composed about having depression.

Him

The joyous years of my life were ephemeral and the despairing ones, slothful.

Despite misery’s degrading reputation, when He visits me I feel impervious.

My heart is fearful of my mind rather than the venomous words that spray out the perpetrators’ tongues.

I am isolated from my nostalgic past and practical mindset.

My soul yearns for sadness more than the planets long for orbit.

There is no change because the result would be catastrophic, like a lack of sadness.

What else is there to feel with Him in the darkest of night?

What else is there to think with Him when I can no longer think of anything else?

Nothing.

Only pain.

The pain, though, is what makes Him worthwhile.

Throughout the multitude of my hardships and ordinary days, sadness has been a constant in my life.

A majority of souls fear anguish, but mine must be an exception because she greets Him with open arms.

She cries when He has to go.

He is all that she depends on.

Depression is like an icicle, cold and hard, but once you melt away the ice and shed off the layers of emotion you resemble a puddle.

Unkempt and messy.

But, that is the con about being a puddle; He likes to jump on you when you are the most vulnerable.

 

Author's Note

If there are grammar errors please let me know but most of all tell me how you think and what I need to improve on. Thank You!

Reviews

[Devesh]

You write from the heart. It's evident in your writing. What I got from the poem was a new insight: Pain is welcome when you're depressed because you yearn to feel something, anything. Pain is the only constant which gives you what you need: feeling. I love it when I learn something new from poems like yours. You're gifted. I can only hope that whatever feelings inspired this have left now, for good. Thank you for sharing, it's because of writings like these that I like to read poetry. Hope you're doing much better now, thanks for sharing. :)

[Ren Grace]

Wow. I cannot thank you enough for your concern. It's comments like yours that keep me writing and trying my best. You are a kind man. Thank you again for your generous words.

[Devesh]

You're welcome. Thank you, that's incredibly kind of you. I've got one request: please don't call me a man. I'm just 17. :)

[Ren Grace]

haha my bad. You seem a lot older. Sorry for the mishap!

[Devesh]

A suit does that to you. It felt odd! No worries. :)

[Roger Turgeon]

I think there a lot of us poets that write from depression or sadness. I much appreciated your view on the subject. You know Him..... and yourself.

[Ren Grace]

Thank you for your generous comment!

[RichGee]

Wow...powerful piece...and the way you personified depression is excellent...
Having an immediate family member that suffers from depression I know how difficult that is...
How HE jumps in when one is most vulnerable...that is so true....great work!

[Ren Grace]

Thank you so much for you comment and taking the time to say these kind words. Suffering from depression is a serious condition and should be handled with care thank you again !

[Coyote Poetry]

You are a very good writer. Your poetry flowed with the gentleness of a skill writer. I wish I had the natural ability to make word sing and dance for you. This is a powerful poem. You gave life to the word "Depression." Make the depression come alive and the reader to understand the desire to fall into some kind of feeling. No weakness in the excellent poetry. Thank you for sharing
Coyote

[Relic]

I like the personification within this. You've given life to states of mind in a way I would have never thought of. Really nice job here Lauren.

[Ren Grace]

Thank you, your comments mean the world to me!

[Relic]

You're quite welcome.

[A. Amos]

I like your style and this poetry was read like a beautiful tale, which you created and capture your readers to get deep into the words and ask for more... good read

[Ren Grace]

Wow thank you so much, it means the world that you think that way

[A. Amos]

you're most welcome my friend.. keep writing you are gifted

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Very good! Nice use of building to emphasise the words 'him' and 'he', it really drives home the importance of this "character" alluded to in the title.

[Ren Grace]

Thank you so much:) I was really keen on using personification

[Erik Daniel]

I really like this one. Good job!

[Ren Grace]

Thank you :)