MY LIFE STORY

A Story by donzky

.. i just wanna share coz i cant take it anymore..

Hi, actually this is my first time to share my story. first of all i want to say sorry because im not really great in speaking english but i can speak it.. i feel desperate and frustrated and i thought it might be a good idea to write and share a little about myself. my relationship with my family has never been really great or even good for that matter. Growing up, there was a lot of haste in our household; a lot of arguing, blaming and sadness. Coming from a broken family was really hurt. I have learned a lot in my 16 years of life so far. Anything that i ever did was just never been good enough. i was 6 years old when my father died, i grew up without a father so its hard to be with boys, i mean im not comfortable being with them. my siblings and I were not really that close (im the last child), we often fight like shouting to each other. My eldest brother was an a*****e and b***h, forgive me for saying that but that is one way to describe him. He always hurt me like throwing stuffs at me and hit me physically. my mom is the best mom that i've ever know, she is kind, generous and yes, she's fame. . . i love her very much but i just cant show it but deep inside me i really love her more than my life. im a shy and sometimes full of pride but i have a good heart. i didn't grew up to my own house or with my family, i grew up with my relatives.. all of us left our own house except my b***h brother. i dont hate my brother, i just hate his attitude, i never say stupid words to him but i wanted to say this time..i love my family inspite of the pain i felt inside my heart. its hard to forgive but im trying. Sometimes, when im alone, i cry because every time i think of it, i dont know what to do. yeah! everyday i always smile not because im happy but because i want to hide my problems. Well, im 16 y/o girl, im confident but sometimes i'm losing my confidence....i have people around me,my mom, my sister and my friends but i still feel alone. I dont open up my feelings to anyone, i smile during the day and tears roll down at night. people do say im beautiful, i can see it but still when i look into the mirror my eyes spoke a different story.

-thank you for reading ♥