Goodbye, LucindaA Story by dragonix543A short, melancholy story inspired by all things gothic :)Morning was
slowly looming into vision as we stood on the drive. The darkness held itself
above our heads, dangling down from the heavens on chains, only inches from
crushing us under its bitter embrace. Soon the chains would shorten and the
dying night would be hauled upwards, giving way to day.
Frigid blasts
of air gushed past our faces, blowing our hair awry and reddening the sullen
white glow of our cheeks. Emily cried, snatching her teddy bear from the ground
and clasping it to her chest, her face burrowed into it, dulling her screams into
muffled gulps.
“Emily,
please,” murmured Mum, her voice hollow. She offered a heavy hand to the child
who smacked it away.
“Behave
yourself,” snapped Dad, his dark eyes burning like hot cinders. Emily looked up
at him, then flinched and stared at the floor reticently.
I lingered
awkwardly next to her, not knowing how to react. Ben, standing far beneath me
at his mere seven years, began to tremble. I reached down a comforting hand to
pat him gently on the head, ruffling his soft birds’ nest of brown curls.
He began to
whimper like an apprehensive puppy. I looked up.
The car had
arrived, long black and gleaming like ochre in the dim lamplight of the street.
The array of white lilies in the back window stood stark against the night, commanding
stares from every passer-by. The flowers
were piled on top of each other in attempt to conceal the long, morbid casket that
lay behind them. The man at the wheel was gaunt and hunched over, his thin legs
wasting away on the leather seat he was crumpled into.
He caught Mum’s
eye and gave a sympathetic smile.
Stepping forward
with a large sweep of his hand, Dad commanded,” Everyone, in.”
He opened the
back door and Ben scurried inside, hopping onto the middle seat. I jumped in
beside him and Dad slammed the door. He was irate with anger. It burned within
him like a flame that he made no effort to conceal. It glared out through his
eyes like a beacon, through the crashes in his footsteps as he took three
thunderous strides away from the car.
Mum carried
Emily to the other side of the car and strapped the little girl tenderly into
the chair, placing the teddy bear softly onto her lap. “There you go,
darling,” she whispered softly. She took a few seconds to take Emily’s hand in
hers, smiling solemnly and muttering something I couldn’t hear under her breath.
Emily blinked at her a few times with two eyes as round as copper coins.
Mum closed the
door slowly, then her face crumpled and she started to cry. She cried so hard
that Dad took her carefully by the arm and led her towards the rear end of the
car. They got into the back together, Mum beginning to howl.
“There, there,”
Dad said awkwardly, patting her on the shoulder with a large clumsy paw. Ben,
Emily and I were all looking behind us, and I couldn’t help but stare at Mum’s
blonde head bobbing up and down and she buried her face into Dad’s overcoat.
“Kids,” Dad
warned, his glasses flashing as he looked up reproachfully. “Don’t stare,
please.”
We flipped our
heads back round and the engine started, low and guttural like a rolling rumble
of thunder. The car edged out onto the road, then sailed off towards the dark
abyss of sky that stretched out beyond us.
TWO HOURS
LATER:
The wind
battered us senseless as we stood outside the chapel doors. It intruded like an
invisible car, shooting forwards and catapulting Ben aside. Then it reversed and
rotated venomously towards Mum before edging towards her with a malevolent
bump, almost throwing her off balance.
Crowded and
impatient, guests squealed like pigs lined up for the abattoir. Dresses
cascaded in the wind, rippling obsidian in the low rays of the winter sun. Cold
air jetted between bare legs, and hats took flight like carrion crows. Teeth
chattered, and yet time chugged onwards, testing for how much longer we could
tolerate its ruthless games.
“Such a chilly
morning,” a vaguely familiar old lady chirped, attempting to break the icy cage
that entrapped us all. No one said anything, although there were a few
acknowledging grunts and nods. The old lady smiled sheepishly, turned a shade
of pink and looked beyond the crowd, casting her gaze over the sunrise.
I turned
around. The church which we were stood outside was perched comfortably on a
small hill. It was capped with an endearingly crooked spire that cast a rugged
charm over the surrounding fields. As I peered down from the hill and over the
expanse of tombstones that studded the grass, it felt rather like standing at
the top of an elevated seating platform and looking down.
My thoughts
were interrupted by a squawking Emily. “Mummy, we’re going in!” I jumped. “Oh!”
Awkwardly, I shuffled my way into the chapel with the rest of my immediate
family. As the next of kin, we were permitted to enter first to show our love
to the deceased.
Faded song
flourished into full melody as we walked through the doors, past the hesitantly
smiling vicar and down the aisle to our seats. Ben threw himself down the
furthest from the aisle, huddled against a pillar, and Dad resided next to him.
Mum sat one space from the end with Emily cushioned on her knee like a lapdog. I sat next to
Mum, patting her gently on the shoulder with a tender hand. She started to cry.
The chorus
trickled in like a gentle brook that grew faster by the second, the crashing
movement against the rocks drowning out the footsteps and the whispers of the
guests filing in: “Are you going to Scarborough Fair… parsley, sage, rosemary
and thyme…” The voice was a woman’s: Celtic, haunting and melancholy in the
most beautiful sense of the word. Choking sobs
echoed around the church as the guests filed into the seats behind us. “I know this
song,” a man whispered. “Everyone knows
it,” a haggard woman, his wife, scoffed. “Lucinda’s favourite, it was.”
Silence.
The minister
stood at the front of the chapel, smoothing out his robes and giving a
discreet, polite cough.
“Welcome,” he
said. I could sense that all eyes in the room were pinned on him and his bushy
white moustache that quivered every time he opened his mouth. Feeling some
pathos towards him, I politely averted my eyes. “We are gathered here today to
commemorate the loss of a talented and beautiful young lady. Lucinda Collins, a
girl loved dearly by her family. By her friends. In so many distinct ways, she
brightened up the lives of all of you standing here today. Her story, as you
are all aware, is heart breaking and crippling beyond all words, for her life
was savagely taken from her and cut tragically short at the age of seventeen. In no way could
one possibly describe the bereavement of those who loved her most…”
A teenaged boy
with floppy brown hair and a snubbed nose sat on the row behind us. He had been
trying to swallow his tears up until now, but I could hear his sobs: shaky
gasps, beginning to leak through. A group of girls sat either side of him,
sandwiched next to one another along the pew.
A girl sat next
to him, laying a sympathetic arm across his shoulder. Her hair fluttered in the
breeze that sailed in through the open doors. It was green, like wisps of wafting
smoke from the cauldron of a witch. Her eyes were heavily dressed in smoky
black liner, and they held a wistful, melancholy gaze.
It was time for
the first prayer. My attention was brought back to the vicar once we were all
asked to stand up. The organ streamed into my hearing, and the vicar commenced
with another tidy, short cough.
“Merciful
Father and Lord of all life,” he began. “We praise you that we are made in your
image and reflect your truth and light. We thank you for the life of your
child, Lucinda, for the love she received from you and showed among us. “Above all, we
rejoice at your gracious promise to all your servants, living and departed,
that we shall rise again at the coming of Christ. And we ask that in due time
we may share with our sister that clearer vision, when we shall see your face
in the same Christ our Lord.”
He paused,
taking a deep breath as sharp sniffs cut through the air like daggers. Tissues
rustled and crinkled.
“Amen.”
The room
repeated the word, and gazes swept to the floor like falling autumn leaves.
Soon it was
time for Dad to stand up. He lifted his overcoat above his knees, almost
throwing it in Ben’s face. The little boy flinched, then sniffed. Dad strode to
the where the vicar stood, his face stoic and devoid of all feeling, of all
life. The large, interactive screen behind him flashed as an image of a girl
came into view. A smiling girl with long dark hair and glinting eyes, flashing
a pair of white, slightly pointed teeth. She was sat on a picnic rug, the sky
behind her cerulean and dashed with fluffy clouds.
Dad lifted his
gaze from the floor, to the back of the church. Then he spoke, his voice loud
and clear, yet somewhat strained.
“Lucinda,” he
said. “Was wise beyond her years. She walked and spoke with a grace that few
other seventeen-year-old girls could ever hope to possess. She was the force
that held this family together like cement, taking care of her siblings and
always remaining considerate towards her parents, even when times were
hard-going for us all. My daughter,” his voice broke, “was a rare gem, lost
from this earth too soon. Far too soon.”
His bellow fizzled
out into a croaky whisper. He looked vulnerable for a second, his stolid façade
slipping away from his face and down to the floor. “I’m sorry,” he murmured. He
stood up straight, looking as if he were going to recite or story or a poem,
but he muttered under his breath:
“She will be
truly and sorely missed.”
His face grew
stern once more and he stormed back to his pew, next to the cowering Ben.
The vicar
shuffled back into his place in the centre, behind the wooden bible stand. His
thin lips morphed into a condoling smile and he recommenced by delivering a
second prayer.
The service
continued in the following fashion: prayers interspersed with the occasional
hymn. The intervals between these were filled with howling and compassionate displays
of mourning, and each cry drew me further from my austere, reclusive bubble and
closer to tears.
It was when the
pallbearers finally heaved the coffin from the ground that I broke. I was
looking at Ben at the time, his blue eyes wistful, the lower lids dotted with
beads of tears. He looked calm, yet I knew that he had no longer a single hope
in the world. The spirited glow of childhood had long since evaded him, leaving
his mouth downturned and his plump cheeks pale.
It’s unjust, I thought to myself, “for a child of his age to deal with death. Old enough to understand
that he’d never see one of his sisters ever again, and yet too young to have
fully appreciated the time spent together.
A tear dribbled
down my cheek and into the folds of my dress.
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20 MINUTES
LATER:
I watched as
the gravediggers slapped clods of soil and clay onto the coffin. Chunk by
chunk, the rubble began to obscure the wooden box from sight, and everyone gave
a sad sigh: of both grievance and relief entwined into one. The last vestiges
of the coffin had soon vanished. We were
standing in a small cemetery, not far from the crooked little church. The
frosted grass was thawing out, and the sunlight peered between the naked
branches of dead winter trees. Still the wind clawed at our bare faces, yet it
carried a faint perfume of pine trees. I breathed it in with closed eyes.
The guests
straightened their coats, rewrapped the scarves around their necks and blew hot
air into the palms of their frozen hands. One by one, they filed out of the
graveyard, down the footpath of trodden grass and out through the gate.
My family and I
stood by the grave for a few more minutes. Mum was still crying, but the tears
came more gently now. A spring shower rather than a rainstorm. Dad took her
hand and Mum scooped up Emily, smoothing down the red bobble hat over her
caramel waves of hair.
They turned
around one last time.
“I love you,
Lucinda,” said Mum. “We all do.”
I smiled at
her, tears clouding my eyes, but she was looking at the grave.
“I love you
too,” I called out, but she didn’t seem to hear. Nor did Dad. Even little Emily
was staring at the grave, her thumb resting between her lips. My voice was
simply an echo that fluttered in the wind like a fledgling struggling to fly.
They turned to
leave.
I looked at
Ben, and he looked back at me.
“Goodbye,
Lucinda,” he whispered.
My heart fell
in my chest. “Goodbye, Ben,” I said. “You were the best little brother I could
have hoped to have… thank you.”
He smiled at
me, and then ran off to join the family, his curls bobbing up and down,
wellington boots crunching on the frozen mud. They left the graveyard, closing
the gate behind them with a gentle clack.
THE END. © 2017 dragonix543 |
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Added on July 12, 2017 Last Updated on July 12, 2017 Tags: short story, gothic, supernatural, sad, ghost, horror, death, spirit Authordragonix543United KingdomAboutI LOVE fantasy, anything vaguely mythological and also (rather oddly) murder mysteries. Some of my favorite authors are Agatha Christie, Terry Pratchett and J.R.R Tolkien... and I can't help likin.. more.. |