Graffiti over 1-5

I keep writting about you

they tell me my words are beautiful 

i dont know why

because they are written for you 

what they dont know 

what you dont know

is that i stare at this blank f*****g page 

and all i feel is rage 

anger and frustration 

because i write downn these things 

and it never comes close to what i feel

i would write down me shouting in the car

because the stupid song you sang for me 

came up on my god damn pandora station again 

i would write down me standing in the shower

while the scolding water burns

my skin as i try to think of the 

exact moment i lost you.

Then i would write down 

me shutting off the water in total defeat

because i realized i never

had you