The Gift

The first gift you ever got me 

was not 'that'

but a book

do you remember, how happy I was?

scratch that - i know you don't

you said i wasn't happy with 'that'

why o why did you assume

just coz I mentioned in passing that 

the other would have been a better one

how could a comment made in passing 

hold so much value to you

but the one said in earnest

the one i meant with all my being

yes, i love 'that' and will always treasure it

not mean anything to you 

is having a preference so much a crime

does it mean i don't appreciate you 

or the efforts you took 

did you forget about everything else

how i loved it when you held my hand

or fed me a piece 

how delighted i was 

and contented in just your company  

guess you didn't really know me

when you called me materialistic 

when you said love wasn't enough

as i needed more

when you thought i wanted you to spend more

or whatever you did, i was never happy with you

when did i ever say i didn't trust you

why did you need me to prove that i am happy that i trust 

why couldn't you believe me that me being happy with you

was a sign of how much i trusted you and loved you

but maybe the truth is you didn't trust me

nor did you truly love

for if you truly love someone

everything ceases to exist 

it doesn't matter whether you live in a palace or a simple room 

it doesn't matter this or that

but how does it matter anymore 

you decided parting was the best for the both of us

the truth is 

i loved you, i truly did from the bottom of my heart

but guess you thought you loved me

but you didn't deserve to be loved

and here i am

questioning why am i so hard to love

when all i seek is little 

the world makes it sound like i need the world

but didn't you know, you were my world?

Reviews

[Kaye]

I know what you are feeling, it is hard to love when it feels someone doesn't love us back,
very emotional read, nicely expressed

[Coyote Poetry]

All of us learn too late dear falakh.
t"he world makes it sound like i need the world
but didn't you know, you were my world?"
The above lines are true and we miss, what we held. Thank you for sharing the amazing poetry and your thoughts.
Coyote