dear mother, let me be your son

i tried so hard to be your daughter

why won't you let me be your son?

if i must live two lives like this

i'd rather just be done

my body will be incomplete

until my dying day

you make my soul feel torn in two

there's not much else to day

i am the girl you nurtured once

the boy who learned to run

these sides of me are battling

but also, they are one

until you learn to love and love,

and love both sides of me

you'll never truly understand

the futures i foresee

the one without a mother

a soul undone with dread

but most of all, an empty space

a chair beside my bed

the future where i make it through

i relearn how to live

and still, you're on our sofa

no light, no love to give