Pain

This what I have been feeling all the time

Have you ever felt the pain of which I speak?

Emotional?

Physical or Self inflected?

Have you ever been mentally unstable because of something that has happened to you?

I have and it has happened a lot. It happens everyday when I feel the pain...self inflected sometimes...mostly just brought on by feelings...when I cry at night..

I cry at night a lot...over a lot of different thoughts...

Feelings...

Decisions...

I have made in the past...

I think about my ex....considering I see him...

I think about my boyfriend...how much he loves me...that brings me happiness...

He brings me joy..

He, my family, and best friend...is keeping me alive.....

I love them and they love me..

Despite the fact that.....

I have all this pain built up inside of me...

Even though it's my own fault...

For my self inflected pain...

It's not my fault...

For all the thoughts I have...

All the dreams...

I have...because....

Of things...I can't explain...

That's why I have all this pain...

Pain...

A lot of pain...