MACO

I'm sorry Robert Frost...

I long not to forget the road not traveled.
I’m so lousy with making decisions.
I like to see down each path just far enough
to see what outcome is envisioned. 

You can’t do this when it comes to love.

Love is always too complex.

But I don’t want to make the same mistake

and follow in my parents footsteps.

My dad gave up his longtime girlfriend

just to marry my cunning mother.

Less than twenty years later came divorce, 

and then he married the other.

Now what lesson am I to learn from this?

Never stray from the path?

That’s not where progress is ever found

So what belief left do I have?

There is a boy I love with all my heart

I can see a good future with him

he has dark hair and strong arms

and a heart he wants to keep me in.

But then there is the boy who tempts me.

With him, I never see the truth.

But his blonde hair, blue eyes and smile

make me want to take that path too.

Only I don’t see the end of that road

with the boy who would make me choose.

I wish I’d the chance to test that path

but to do so would make me lose.

Should I be steady as the world turns

or erratic like my pounding heart?

I thought this poem would help

but now I’m only more torn apart.

Just force me down one road

so that I may never look back.

Of course I know that’s impossible

because I’m already swimming in regret.

5-26-13