I'm So Tired

a vent poem about what goes on in my head and just how mentally draining it can be, jut know you aren't alone if you can relate to this

TW SH, SU!C!DE

I’m so tired

Painting a face on every day

Just so I don't hate my reflection 

Triple guessing myself on what to wear

So men don’t label me as asking for harassment

I’m so tired of waking up every morning

I constantly question my purpose in life

If I was meant to be something great

Why has my life chained me to the bottom

Of the ocean

My lungs are filling with emptiness 

And my vision is constantly blurred,

Maybe that’s why I always miss the red flags.

My body reminds me of the ocean,

It's littered.

Scars from an ongoing battle are spread across my body

And it appears I’m on the losing side.

I’m so tired of fighting the silent voices

And resisting the urges

To act on my thoughts,

Of wondering what my veins look like 

Inside.

I’m so tired

Of wishing people would love me,

I must be foolish to wish someone

Would want more than what’s between my legs

I’m so tired

But I can’t sleep.

My thoughts race faster as the sun sets

The silent voices become louder

And the urges become stronger.

The only way I’m able to sleep

Is when my body

Collapses 

From exhaustion.

I’m so tired. 

-D

Author's Note

I'm sure the grammar is not the best but other than that, what do you guys think?

Reviews

[Aura]

It is hard sometimes to be yourself. Honestly yeah I can relate to some of it, mostly the purpose for my life part. Sometimes it is just so easy to question it, because we don't have a clear idea of what our purpose is, why are we here in the first place? And not knowing the answer to that makes us feel even more sad. I mean then, what's the point of waking up if you do not know what your purpose is? Sometimes it hurts to not have the answers to every question but that doesn't mean you shouldn't keep trying . People are capable of anything as long as they believe they're capable of it, such as being capable of being loved for the right reasons, capable of having a important purpose in life, and being capable of having that self confidence in oneself. I enjoyed reading this, I found it very relatable and I do hope you're doing well mentally!