![]() My Unspoken Apology; Your Unheard ClosureA Poem by Eternal DemiseIt’s quieter now. The once familiar buzz is gone. The soft symphony that accompanied your voice has stopped playing. Yet somehow, by some magic, I still feel the buzz, I still hear the symphony. Can you? My mind paints pictures for my senses, A desperate attempt at making you real again. The air smells sweet, The un-used side of the bed feels warm, The sounds of life seem to carry your voice, Even street meat tastes of homemade love and affection. But it’s all an illusion, I see that. You’re gone, I pushed you away. I told you to forget me so you could fight for love. I wonder if you hate me for leaving you alone, For breaking my promise of being there for you through thick and thin; But I’m toxic. I seem to build you up just to kick the chair out from under you. To watch you squirm as you hang from a rope of dreams, pain, truth, and compassion. And as much as I want to cut you down, Your brown eyes staring deep into mine make me weak in the knees. I freeze and I’m filled with the most putrid feeling I’ve ever felt. My heart stops beating and goes into cardiac arrest. My stomach becomes violent and I choke momentarily on my own bile. I look up and see you crying; though I left you hanging by a string you still seem to care. As I slowly asphyxiate on my own bile I cut you free. I struggle, but with my last breath I manage to utter a few words: I’m sorry, I’m no different than the others. © 2015 Eternal Demise |
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