Backside

I wrote this after jumping off a cliff (backside) with my boyfriend after deciding to get out of a worse relationship. It was a symbolic jump, even at the time. So, this is for Peter.

 more than anything, i wish to explode.

 

boy, it seems like such a long time since i went around being brown.

boy, it's such a far fall...one, two, three...five seconds to fall.

boy, you dragged me through thorns and weed to get here and i want to back down.

 

i threw in the masks, not the towel, because i'm ready to let go.

as i stand here contemplating, you're in the water

and you have no idea that this jump, to me, means more than hitting the water.

this jump is my final decision.

 

there is no turning back.

once i'm off the cliff, i can't change my mind.

i can't reverse.

it scares me, it thrills me, it moves me, it chills me.

 

i guess i'm already off the cliff.

i'm already suspended in the air, caught in the in-between.

i'm already falling, you're already waiting.

i came this far, i mean, i'm here, right?

i can't help but wonder:

how did i get here?

how did this happen so fast?

when did things start to change?

but the change is finally in my direction.

 

so i jumped.

 

Author's Note

No caps was purposeful.

Reviews

[Hannerr.]

The lack of capital letters was rather powerful; it made it feel like there was no breaks, but the punctuation contradicted this, indicating many breaks. The whole idea behind the poem is also very powerful, and the way you've conveyed this idea is very good.

'there is no turning back.
once i'm off the cliff, i can't change my mind.'

That is my very favourite part of your poem. All I can say is that I wish I'd written those two lines.

[Truc]

Very nice. The flow is very good. I can't do any better.

[C.R. Moore "Lasla"]

excellent metaphor an interesting idea to compare to..the flow was nice and the description paints the picture nicely done!
Keep them coming.

Lasla