To Surrender My Walls

I hope you'll look at me as i am

So far from perfect where i stand

I promise i'm trying

But theres still those days

When all my ghosts will rattle their cages

So forgive me if i'm a bit gun shy

Its just i've felt the bitter bite of that bullet one to many times

I fake it well but i think you're starting to see through

My lies about my heart being bulletproof

I stand strong with my steel walls

But underneath i'm fragile as i've been from the start

I'm not trying to be a fake

And its not like this day after day

But now and then the world gets heavy

And my mind starts spinning

Not being able to handle everyones shouted opinion

Waves crashing over, i lose all sense of direction 

At some point i think i stop breathing 

But i'm stubborn to give up my mask

Its the last strand of protection i have

I'm so used to bandaging my own wounds

And waiting on peace whenever it wants to resume

But now theres the idea that i don't have to fight it alone

To surrender and drop my walls

Cause there in your arms feels like home

Its like the tide of your breathing

Calms the raging storm into gentle waves

Suddenly i don't feel the weight of the world on my chest

And for once i am at peace

For once i find rest.

Author's Note

any input or opinions on this would be greatly appreciated

Reviews

[Jonathan]

I like how honest this poem sounds. The wording is descriptive without being pretentious. Great overall write. a little off topic but have you ever heard the song fade into you by Mazzy Star? You should check it out, or not your choice. :)