August 1stA Story by FarheenThe leaves swoon the ground as the cold air grasps the nightly morning.
The woman sits on the park bench with a purse dangling off her left shoulder. She
is paralyzed by her empty thoughts as the swing in front of her creaks with a gentle
push from the wind. “It’s too cold to be out here. Too cold to feel anything.” The chilly air sparks a memory in her mind
about her childhood. The park transforms into a forest. A little girl giggles and wiggles her body as she chases
a wild bunny carelessly in the meadow. The wild bunny dives into the pool of
tall grass as the little girl creeps up at the bunny hovering over it until the
bunny jolts towards the distance. The little girl follows in pursuit. Joy
suddenly vanishes as she realizes she has wondered into the forest and the
bunny has disappeared too. She is lost now. She is scared. She is lost and she
is scared and there is no path to bring her back, no light to follow. The
little girl scans her surroundings in the thick constricted forest. Fear
infuses a moment of curiosity as the girl directs her gaze up to the forest
top. The trees huddle together to block sun and wind from entering their
vicinity. The forest is empty, the forest is soundless, the forest is nothing,
the forest is peaceful. Her head follows the movement of her hands dropping
down to the forest bedding to stroke the grass. It breathes between her
fingers, and yet it has no motion of its own. How is it alive with no motion?
The little girl takes a deep breath before her feet give into the temptation of
immersing with the soft grass. She calmly reenacts the movement of her hand
that the grass followed, repeating herself over and over again. The vivid
memory fades away and woman is left consulting her thoughts looking at the park where her forest stood once. “How did I find my
way out of the forest?” the woman murmurs. Molded to the bench the women tries
to dig deeper into her memories finding no answer in return. She found herself
only mesmerizing at the little girl’s state of love for the dark forest. “I
want that feeling back, it’s the only thing I want” the woman tilts her head up
to gaze at the swing. The wind still pushes the lifeless swing still creaking
at the touch of air. “It’s not the same, nothing ever is.” She looks up at the
wide sky to search for the familiar darkness as she had once saw when she was a
little girl. But the darkness has changed its form. The darkness before was
cold but forgiving, even the chills it gave the little girl had warmth. The
darkness now is frozen and lifeless, and cruel and miserable. A tear trickles
down the woman’s face and soon is followed by the flow of salty stream. The
woman cups her hands together and sees it flood up. “Feeling nothing is
better.” She breaks the chain of tears to grab the purse by her shoulder.
“Feeling nothing is better.” She scavenges the purse finally gripping onto cold
metal. “Feeling nothing is better.” She directs the cold metal towards the temple
of her head. “Feeling nothing is better,” she repeats one last time before she
falls into darkness. © 2017 FarheenFeatured Review
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