somebody needs help.

Just the usual.

I've been looking for years apon years for help,
all i've found is more misery to come,
more pain and suffering, more lies and backstabbing.
Nothing to come from good, just more evil.
i swear i'm surrounded by demons, i look for good.
I help people more than  myself, when i try to focus on myself everything keeps going down hill, i don't know what to do, surrounded by hate and lonliness,
i try to do my best, i can't go to school, i can't go out anywhere.
what have i done to deserve this?
i've always been a good girl, i just need someone to help.
i've tried helping myself, and letting others helped me for years, but it's never happened, maybe i'm just the saviour to everyone else, and supose to suffer their pain, instead of being happy myself, i give up on everything, the demons can have me, as far as i'm concerned there's no god, his never helped, his never answered my prayers i've been praying for years, believing in him, but today i don't. today i turn to evil as my father. i've scarficed myself to him, to help everyone else.
Remember, i will always love you all.