Human Again

 

 

 

 

Had it really been that long since I smiled?

It's harder than you might think,

slowly erasing any feeling that was real,

just so you can keep on living.

 

And I can tell you, it's difficult to take five years,

and strangle it into submission.

There are a few things to remember:

Don't think about anything in particular,

Don't let her face into your head,

and lastly, don't smile, because it just doesn't seem right 

anymore.

 

She must have heard it from far away:

the echoes of my passion receding into this cage

that I've created for myself, the only problem is,

I've thrown the key away.

 

When we could finally see each other again I 

couldn't release it, and this sick menagerie

just looked on at her tears, emotion wasn't going

to give me a break this time. If only it was going

to be all right, so I could 

comfort her.

 

But then, before we have to start it all over again, 

before we go our separate ways to different schools

for the second time, in the debris of our past, as we

reach out to each other in the dark, something happens.

What is this feeling?

I don't believe it.

Just to make sure, I swipe my finger across my cheek;

 

a single tear.