Double Decima

You are, until now and the days yet to be,

the best thing and worst thing that happened to me.

My soul’s torn to shreds by the feelings I host,

I’m grateful and hateful and fearing the worst.

I’m shrouded in wonder and keeping the fast

while mourning the things that are lost to the past.

Excited by visions that hide in the winds,

both humble and smug and in vague disbelief,

I’m doubting the setting in front of my eyes

while learning impossible truths to deny.

Eyes open to heaven, eyes open to hell,

eyes open so wide they can’t close to get well,

awake in the knowledge that shines everywhere,

that won’t let me fail and that won’t let me dare,

I feel more than human and slightly insane.

I’m honored, I’m privileged, I’m writhing in pain.

Beholden to you more than words can express

I owe you my grace and blame you for my mess,

I’ve grown ten times better than I thought I’d be;

you’re the best thing and worst thing that happened to me.

Reviews

[Francis Rosenfeld]

They don't :) That's the great thing about genuine relationships.

[Samuel Dickens]

Excellent. I'll bet a lot of us are in the same boat. In the words of Mick Jagger, "you can't always get what you want... sometimes you get what you need." Wouldn't it be something if relationships never aged?