parents love

i stand their with a knife

 in one hand and a 

towel in the other 

my hand shakes as 

i feel the cold tip of 

the knife slowly make 

one line then another 

my tears began to fall 

blood drips into the sink 

Turin it red every thing 

gets blurry im loosing 

too much blood and i fall to the 

ground knocking over soap and

 pictures off the wall 

and sink my parents knock 

on the door asking if i was OK 

but i didn't answer i just 

layed their the my father 

busted through the door he called 

to his wife call an ambulance as 

he applied pressure to my wrist saying 

every thing is going to be OK 

that's the last thing i remember 

it i was in the hospital doctors and 

nurses were rushing and yelling things and that's 

all i remember til after the surgery it 

was i was in a hospital gown arms 

tied down to the bed a nurse was 

in the room with me i demanded 

to be untied and then my parents 

came in with the doctor and the were 

talking i didn't listen i just wanted 

to be untied they untied me and let 

me go home three days later and i 

was sent to a mental hospital like 

my parents didn't want to help me 

they never visited never called never 

wrote they gave me away the

hurt never goes away

Author's Note

not my life but induces some