pain and lies

sad

I live a life of pain and lies.

I’m a fraud, I laugh at people’s lousy jokes, I pretend  that I care about their lives.

I can’t swim , I can’t even dive.

I don’t belong on shore nor I have wings to fly.

 

I’m counting days for this to end.

I hope you understand , I just can’t go any longer and pretend.

 

I envy you Mother, you’re no longer affected by life.

New day brings new sorrow.

Food has no taste, people  are cruel and they have no morals.

Mother, You’re free!, you have done your time here on earth.

Mother, forgive me.

I know you’ve tried your best.

 

Through the clouds, sometimes I think it’s your face , looking at me.

To remind me that there is more there after waiting for me.

 

Time can be cruel.

Skin wrinkles, bones hurt.

I’m trying to help myself, but makeup placed on my face doesn’t want to stay there.

Mirror doesn’t lie, it reflect time passing by.

 

Mother- why did you leave me behind?.

Did you really believethat I was strong enough to survive?

Open your arms  one last time before you go  into unknown

Mother!, Please, wait! - Don’t  leave me behind!.