Certain type of sadness

A Poem by Geri

The inner thoughts relating to pride and sadness

I like to feel the fresh air it makes me feel alive, it puts a purpose to the tears that are building in my eyes
See only a certain type of sadness reduces me to cry,
It's usually my pride that stops me in my tracks, to tell me that nobody has got my back, like I do.
If I let it out they will think I am mad ,
Hear the quiver in my voice as I try to justify - and know I'm sad
It's my weaknesses at stake, they're put out for people to manipulate,
And maybe that's what caused the tears to precipitate?
It's best not to make the same mistakes, again
What a horrible way of thinking?
What a sad way to live,
What caused my mind to be so negative?
I'll not cry, I'll shy away,
Pretend this is not happening and continue my day,
After all nobody really needs to see
The certain type of sadness that is eating me