the wall and the roadA Poem by ghostii wrote this when i was asked how i felt about receiving a late diagnosis for a learning disability/neurological disorderIn the city of my mind, I have this wall. This tall, large, thick, wall. I used to be able to ignore it, Everything I ever needed to do was inside the limits of my wall. When I was small, I was curious and traveled to the very edge. “That’s farther than most kids your age go,” they said. I just nodded my head and went along. But as I grew up, the closer to the wall I was required to go, Until eventually, I was face-to-face with it, Unable to go through. “I can’t go past here,” I said, “There’s a wall blocking my path.” “No there isn’t,” they said, “It’s the road. Everyone has them. That’s just what its like.” I didn’t agree, but I tried anyway. I couldn’t walk through, so I tried to dig down, I ended up hitting rock bottom. “That’s not how you walk the road,” they said, mocking my dirty face. I tried again. I tried to climb the wall. Using ridges and ledges, I climbed. Miles, it seemed, I climbed, but went nowhere. Until I made a misstep and fell back down. “You’re so clumsy,” they said “Do it again, but actually try this time.” I did. I tried again. And again, and again, and again, and again, Yet I could never get past this wall. I eventually started calling out to my friends on the other side. “It’s just a brick road,” my friends said, “Some have more cracks, but it is all the same.” That’s when I looked up at this towering, Monstrous solid cynderblock wall, and all I could say was, “This is not a road” I was a fish judged on how I could climb, or a cat on their ability to bark. “There is a wall, I can’t get through,” I say. “It’s just a road” they say. © 2022 ghosti |
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Added on January 4, 2022 Last Updated on January 4, 2022 |