18 Messages You Will Never Get

this all leads up to "sorry" but my pride is too big to say it, and i don't even know what i'm sorry for, but i feel like it needs to be said. something needs to be said.

*beeeeep*

and in the ephemeral Everything i can see now

that-

even though my head is spinning, and i feel like im

going to vomit i-

let me tell you something, buddy. i think that-

listen, we need to talk. this is getting ridiculous

and i know that-

IHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATE-

"Begging God to rid my head of every word you've ever

spoken"-

I've been reduced to sending you song lyrics.

What have you done to m-

"CAUSE YOU KNEW WHAT YOU WERE DOING AND 

YOU KNOW JUST WHAT YOU'VE DONE"-

remember that time we were laying on

your floor and The Killers were playing?

I think about that a lot-

IF I OPEN MY MOUTH AS WIDE AS I CAN I

STILL CANT WRAP IT AROUND THE WORD, I'LL

NEVER SAY IT I'LL NEVER SAY IT YOU CAN'T

MAKE ME-

haha. remember when you said "forever"? hahahahaha-

it is 12/31/14 and in 5 days i will kiss you for the first time

and in 5 days i will not speak to you for months. miss you-

my hands don't shake when i see you anymore

that's the first time since i met you-

what happ-

YOU'RE A MESS AND I'M A MESS

IT COULD WORK-

Just to clarify- I didn't do it because of you-

I'm listening to Drown on repeat. Remember 

when you showed me that song? Yeah-

G'bye I guess. (Your new haircut sucks)

Author's Note

if u read this i'm sorry i'm not as bitter as i seem