Lay

i am going to lay my head down, cover my eyes

and drift away. tonight i’d like to forget everything

you’ve ever said. every time you said my name.

sleep away my heart ache, and wake up without your

image heavy on my chest, weighing me down. always.

 

 

 

thoughts of paying whatever price to sleep are

coming back. I have the tools, have the method.

and all the madness is hideable. No one would have

to be in on it. My own secret. I’m keeping thousands

as it is, whats one more on the list. one more straw that

I’ll dare to be the last.

 

 

 

having my life back might be nice, a quick restart,

fresh paint over all these scars that I’m trying to live past.

but I keep getting pulled back. drug under by an impossible

undertow, drowning wouldn’t be a bad alternative, but my lungs

keep fighting, they seem to think they have so much air left.

 

 

 

 

 

 

and a goodnight kiss is all i’m wanting.

someone to remind me that, yes in the morning

      they will still love me.

Reviews

[Pink Poison]

Very powerful and sad. You describe the lonliness and pain so well, I can feel them. I really like the sublte hope in the image of your lungs fighting, thinking they have so much air left. Great poem.

[Stephanie W.]

this is wonderful.
you express the emotion of longing and losing so well.
i can completely relate.
loved it.

[John Stussy]

Such a sad, heartfelt write. Sorry you have to feel this, but it makes for excellent poems. Keep your chin up.

[kaycee]

I enjoyed this. I could definitely identify with the heartache, the insomnia, the desperation, the loneliness...
And the closing lines...so sad :(