your memory.

to my ex. who ruined my life and proved that i should never trust anyone again and that feelings are never right. thanks for killing my soul...

as i sit in my bed

my mind wanders through memories,

good and bad.

when i was young and carefree.

 

but then the memory of you

pops up.

your smell,

your eyes,

your lips.

 

tears roll down my cheeks

as i look around my bed

and i remember when we were here,

not so long ago.

 

talking and enjoying each others time.

laughing at jokes,

crying about the past.

you holding me in your arms.

 

it seems like it was forever ago

even though it was only months ago.

and it never really hit me until i didnt have anything to do

except remember you.

 

i try with all my might to stop the flood of tears.

i cant believe i let you do this to me.

you had me wrapped around your finger.

and i was blind.

 

i had never let anyone into my life like that before.

but you were something special.

i remember sitting on my bed and crying in your arms.

then you swept away the tears with your warm kisses.

 

i miss them, the kisses.

they were reminders of how much you cared.

or how much i thought you cared.

but then i let you become a major part of me.

 

and once you had me where you wanted me

you just let go.

not worrying about my downfall.

just glad you werent going down with me.

 

thus the story of my life.

people building me up and pushing me off the ledge.

and now because of you,

my walls are stronger than ever.

 

you ruined me.

never to be whole again.

you taught me never to trust again.

never to let anyone into my life like i did for you.

 

so now as i try my hardest to push your memory away

there is still a part that wont go back.

your kiss when you broke my heart.

please just fade away...